After a long week, I am happy to blog and talk about this heat wave we are having here in California. It is ridiculous hot and staying in a temperature controlled room is imperative now because when I get too hot or too cold, everything seems to hurt more??? It’s now been three years since I have been able to go the beach (2hr) drive from here. The Beach is my favorite place to relax and unwind. I am not sure about everyone else, but my pain levels are really high and I almost had to go to the hospital a couple of nights this week, but thank you God, I am home. I really love the summer time because it’s so calming and relaxing that I can really get into dealing with my Chronic Pain. Once I figured out how my body adapts to weather changes, I really had to make major changes.
Hard Steps, but I work on this everyday. It’s really easy to get into a mood where my pain and emotional state end up running me and it should be the other way around. I spent almost 3 years in a deep depression. I cut off all family and limited my contacts with friends, because I can’t do a lot of things the way I used to anymore, also it was assumed that I was addicted to drugs either prescription or recreational drugs (which I have never had an addiction problem) and that I was somehow making it all up to avoid working. I have worked from the time I was 15 1/2yrs old and I actually am irritated because I can no longer work. One thing I have come to realize is that having a mesh implant it has given me more patience and forgiveness for myself.
I was trusting my gut instinct and because I didn’t really know what was happening to me then, I knew I couldn’t really explain to my family and friends exactly what was going on and that alone was a lot of anxiety and stress. I feel really disconnected from my prior life as I knew it, now. I did a lot of crying and a lot of soul searching, praying to God for guidance, then I knew what I needed to do. Having a Transvaginal Mesh Implant has caused a lot of side effects. My auto immune condition, fibromyalgia went from being manageable to completely out of control
Anything that can cause Gas pains:
Summer time includes so many things, flip flop weather, and having family bbq’s to water/theme parks and having to watch what I eat is tough, but for my digestion system I am willing to make the sacrifice’s. I love salads with fresh vegetables and organic dressings nothing too heavy. Watermelon, oranges, grapes… I have it on a schedule where I can eat some things and take it easy like every other day, but it varies.
We digest food differently so it’s really a process of trial and error to see what food affect you and how they affect you. I changed my milk products to Lactaid and most Coffee Creamers are being made where these ingredients are not in them anymore. Finances have really played a role in all of these things that I do to make life a bit easier. I am looking forward to a trip to the beach soon. Most of my pain comes from the rectal side, I get inflammation in my Colon, the pain is unreal when it acts up which is everyday.
A new video will be coming soon, it is a new project I am working on continuing it and It’s a lot of fun to do. If there are any questions, or comments, please ask away. I will always do my best to either get answers or investigate further.
I will definitely be blogging on Sunday’s and Smalltalk, Manic Mondays and with all the stress that comes with battling this complicated condition, there is room for some happy. Without happiness, misery will surely take over. We are here and it’s ok to live our life’s as best as we can. Good is good enough and forgiveness within my self helps me to walk through this journey with purpose. Thank you all for reading tonight and I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.
Yes it’s time for Meme of the Week. I did two this week. I hope you like them. If you have any suggestions on mesh meme’s please comment with your ideas.
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M. Hedgcoth, co founder of WCMF. Transvaginal Mesh Warrior and Survivor. God bless you. Dedicated to John Aguilar, Rest In Peace Cousin, you will be missed everyday. I love you.
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